—Nica (Made this quote because all I can think of right now is the fact that my boyfriend’s leaving me in less than a year to go back home to Florida. UUUGGHHH)
The wonderful thing is that I know this is real because I was there at one point in time and I’m a witness to the beauty that is Paris.
Never fails to make me cry whenever I watch it. That’s my childhood right there.
Talking about high school songs and bands with my friend the other day made me listen to FM Static again and can I just say that their song still gets me up to this day.
And it’s when I fall down on my knees, I trust him the most. I trust that him being in his most natural state and his first state towards me is what makes me believe that I can be with him forever. Even if it goes both ways, which means, even if it goes toward the friend path or even if it goes towards the marrying path, I know that either way, I will still be with him. Because him being my friend and him being in the state of being my friend is the most wonderful thing I could ever ask for in my relationship with him.
I realized that sometimes, on nights like this, I just want to talk and laugh and chill and not feel the pressure of having to hold his hand or caress his skin just because he’s my other half, but I am happy and contended that I treated him as my friend for the most part of my night and that, for me, was more than enough.
I realized that as a friend, who makes him laugh and hears him laugh as a friend, it makes me like him and fall for him all over again and I forget that he’s mine and the thought of pursuit courses through me but I remember the split second after, that he is already mine and that I am forever grateful to have such a man in my life.
I realized that this is the first weakness I’ve had towards the male population. I realized that this weakness built up through him and I realized that because he’s the only guy who makes me weak like this, that I want him to be the only man to do so.
I know it’s cheesepops and corndog to say this but I really… haven’t felt this way before. And it doesn’t scare me, which is what scares me. But I know that together or not…
He’ll probably be the only man who steals my breath away.