Because maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me.
This one’s for you cause you a ho.
Heading back to abs city again. #almostthere #painpaysoff
My beliefs have always been different from my family despite the fact that they’ve helped instill in me whatever I believe in today. I respect theirs but they can’t seem to respect mine. Not that I’m pulling against any Christian thing that they do, but sometimes I just think that the things they do aren’t really necessary to show that one has a strong faith. Either way, since I’m still living under their roof, I still, of course, abide by their rules and practices.
So for Good Friday, we did our usual Stations of the Cross. Before I start, some of you might be shocked that I’m some “Jesus Freak” or something, or for some of you who already know me, you might think it’s some new or fake front that I’m trying to pull, well… I don’t really give a fuck about what people think cause in the end, it’s my relationship with Him. Not anyone else, and I guess you can say, what other people think about it don’t really matter for as long as I know that I am working hard on my relationship with God, always have been and always will. So to anyone who thinks I’m an attention seeking person, well idgaf. And to those who they think they know me and mention some shit like I’m not like this, well I’m sorry but you don’t really know me at all. And yes, I’m not the hardcore Christian who keeps it all goody-goody. As you can see, I use profanity and I’m open about it and I don’t really care, idk why. Thought I know it’s bad but, whatevs.
Anyways, so we did our Stations of the Cross, right? And after everything… Idk, mom just told us to pray to the cross. And I found myself praying for something, not because I needed to, but because those were the words that suddenly swayed out of my mind. So I guess I know then that that’s my heart talking to God because before I even made the sign of the cross, I didn’t exactly know what to pray for.
Well, I prayed for self-worth. I know that He died for us, and it makes me feel conscious. I know that I’ve done things for Him, but I sometimes I think “Is this enough for the Lord?”. But then it dawned on me, for as long as I already know that I am his daughter and that I live my life knowing that and acting on it, then I know that He will see my effort, but then again, if deep in my heart I know that I feel like I’m not doing enough, then I’m only answering my own question.
I WANT so bad to be worthy of His love and all the graces and blessings and gifts and the people He bestowed upon my life. I WANT so bad to be one of the people who could at least help people change so we can not let His death be in vain. I WANT so bad to just do more for Him. To be worthy of His love and the life He’s given me.
I want to be worth it so when the time comes that I will be judged, I can see Him smile at me, as his daughter and as His creation and as what He planned me to be.
Cause I know my God saved the day, and I know His word never fails. And I know my God made a way for me.
“If anyone has this world’s goods (resources for sustaining life) and sees his brother and fellow believer in need, yet closes his heart of compassion against him, how can the love of God live and remain in him? Let us not love [merely] in theory or in speech but in deed and in truth.” (1 John 3:17–18, AMP)
I’ve heard it said that you can give without loving, but you can’t love without giving. Notice this verse tells us that love isn’t just about our words or thoughts, it’s about our actions. Love is about reaching out and meeting the needs of others. Sometimes meeting someone’s needs is as simple as a smile or sharing a word of encouragement. There are many ways to show the love of God. Can you pay for someone’s gas or groceries? Do you see a need in someone’s life that you can meet? Remember, you are the hands and feet of Jesus in the earth. The Lord wants to bless you today so that you can be a blessing to others. He wants to work through you to show His love and compassion.
Today and every day, look for ways to put your love into action. The Bible says that it’s His kindness that leads people to repentance. He wants to show His kindness in the earth through you. Step out and sow good seeds of love by meeting the needs of others. God promises that those seeds will produce an abundant harvest in your life in return!
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise. Consume me from the inside out. 🙌 #favepraisenworship #favesong #hillsong
GAHHDD FUCKING LOVE THAI!!!!!!!!!!!!
My favorite praise and worship song from Hillsong.
“Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades. Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame. My heat and my soul, I give You control, consume me from the inside out, Lord. Let justice and praise become my embrace, to love you from the inside out.”